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4. The Toy Store (1980)

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The Au Pairs
The Step-stepfather
The Simulated Wank
The Toy Store
The First Single
The Queeny Put-Down
The First Hissy Fit
The First Gay Club
The Rent Boy
The Heterosexual Phase
The Lifestyle Switch
The Empty Floor
The First Poem
The Amsterdam Weekend
The First Time
The Perfect Moment
The Year In Berlin
The Trade Years
The First Memory
The Anniversary Party
The Incompetencies
The Pricking Of The Bubble
The Club Residencies
The "Tales of the City" House
The Musical Epiphany
The Worst Thing I Ever Did To Anyone
The Royal Procession
The Parental Disclosure
The Concept Albums
The Romantic Obsession
The Failure
The Apotheosis of Queer
The Shove From Above
The Interrogation
The Professional Rut
The Rebirthday
The First Boyfriend
The "Catharsis Of Joy"
The Funeral Address
The Falling In Love

Chronological Index

troubled diva

After A-levels in 1979, I had stayed on an extra term at boarding school in order to sit the Oxbridge examinations. I was applying to join Christ’s College Cambridge as a law student, where both my father and paternal grandfather had studied. One of the people interviewing me was a personal friend of my maternal grandfather (himself a QC and former master of the Inner Temple), who had been tipped off in advance about me. However, no nepotism in the world could have covered for the truly pathetic interview which I gave, nor for the pitiful exam papers which I submitted. Still, no matter – the Law department of Nottingham University had offered me a place, commencing in the autumn 1980. My future was secured.

So, how to fill the intervening nine months? The idea of staying in the war zone that was the family home, with my father and stepmother constantly rowing and constantly taking their anger out on me, was just too awful to contemplate. Three years of school holidays had done me quite enough emotional damage as it was. I needed to escape.

Which is why I shall always be eternally grateful to my aunt and uncle. No doubt knowing full well what was going on up in North Nottinghamshire, they discreetly offered me their spare bedroom in Loughton, Essex for the entire period, providing I could find a job in London. And so I wrote letters to all the major department stores, asking for work. Eventually, I was offered a job by Hamleys of Regent Street, the world’s largest toy store, commencing in January 1980.

On the morning of my last day at home, my father came bursting into my room in a particularly filthy temper. He was looking for an umbrella which he’d lent me a couple of days earlier. While I had been using it, the button had somehow come off the umbrella, so that it could no longer be closed properly. I hadn’t dared tell him. Now he discovered it for himself. Flying into a rage, he started trying to beat me on the backside with it. It’s the only time he ever attempted violence towards me, and he wasn’t making a very good job of it, but I was still already in tears when my stepmother Sally entered the room.

In a parallel life, Sally could have been a camp icon. With long blonde hair, a deep husky voice, a theatrical manner and a sometimes outrageous dress sense, she exuded a raddled glamour, a sexuality which could border on the threatening, but also an underpinning, redeeming, vulnerability. Take equal measures of Alexis Carrington Colby Dexter, Jilly Cooper, and Patsy Stone from Ab Fab, and you’ll get the general idea. Seriously. I’m not joking.

Anyway, on that particular morning, Sally was pure Alexis. She stood in the doorway, watching the pathetic scene of enraged father smiting whimpering son, and then simply said, in her iciest tones:

“John, don’t hit Michael. You might break the umbrella.”

After breakfast, she spoke to me again.

“Michael, you are leaving this house today. Frankly, up till now, you’ve been a bit of a bloody disappointment. I hope that in the next few months, you’ll do some growing up.”

On the train down to London, I resolved never again to spend more than three or four consecutive nights at home. I kept to that promise faithfully.

So, for the next few months, I commuted between Loughton and Oxford Circus on the Central Line, and did my time as a sales assistant on the ground floor of Hamleys. At the time, the store was a few doors up from its current address, and the culture of the place was still of the old fashioned, “Are You Being Served?” variety. There were strict hierarchies within the company, and a great deal of the usual (though new to me) management pettiness and employee disgruntlement.

On the ground floor, there were a lot of freelance product demonstrators who weren’t employed directly by Hamleys. They were a great bunch, drawn to a great extent from “resting” performers and musicians. Our Lego lady was a former Tiller Girl, with legs to match. Our Pelhams puppets lady used to sing with big showbands, such as Jack Parnell’s. In her younger days, our Corgi lady used to do a “sexy stockings and suspenders” singing and comedy act in the clubs – by then, she was getting jobs as an extra on TV dramas such as Juliet Bravo. Our “Magic Plastic” demonstrator (you know, those do-it-yourself balloon kits where you squeeze a blob of gunk from a tube and inflate it – takes the polish off furniture, but we don’t tell them that) had played some gigs with The Members (“Sound Of The Suburbs”) and was forming a band with some former members of X-Ray Spex. Most of them didn’t give a stuff about the job, and so we’d have a good laugh and bitching session every lunchtime in the Dog And Trumpet or the Shakespeare’s Head at the top of Carnaby Street.

The biggest character of all, though, was our floor manager – Keith. He had been a full-on hippy love child in the 1960s (kaftans, bells, beads, flowers in the hair, technicolour love-ins at Alexandra palace, the lot) and had never really recovered. He claimed he’d “gone straight”, and so would sometimes attempt to prove this by displays of excessive authoritarianism. The rest of the time, he was a hoot. He would prowl round the floor like a subversive caricature of Captain Peacock in a bubble perm, trying to score dope off some of the younger assistants (and sometimes succeeding – you’d occasionally see lumps of hash being flung over the counter at him in full view of the punters), or sidling up to you while you were serving, with a hardcore porn mag hidden inside a Hamleys bag, which he’d then secretly show you as you were counting out the change (“What do you think of the snatch on that, Mr. Slater?”)

Don’t get the wrong idea though. Keith was immensely likeable and popular, and we developed a great banter with each other. He saw me as something of a “project”, and considered that, having led a sheltered life, I needed “bringing out of myself.”

On one memorable occasion, Keith approached me. “Mr. Slater, may I have a word with you please?”

“Certainly, Mr. H------“

“Some friends of mine are making a pornographic movie, Mr. Slater, and I wondered whether you would be interested in appearing in it. We are looking for an inexperienced, spotty schoolboy type such as yourself.”

He outlined the plot for me. Scene One: Mike walks down street, meets pretty lady. Scene Two: Mike and pretty lady back at her place, getting jiggy with it, at length. Scene Three. Pretty lady’s mother bursts in on us. She joins in. Scene Four. Mother’s lady friend bursts in on us. She also joins in. Cue credits.

I politely declined. What, I explained, would happen if my father were ever to see it?

I saved up my cash and in August 1980, left Hamleys and went Interailing round Europe on my own for a month, casting myself as Valerie Singleton in an extended “Blue Peter Special Assignment” and not getting myself into nearly enough trouble.

Many years later, I met someone who had worked at Hamleys a few years after me. I asked what had happened to Keith. It turned out that he had got progressively weirder, and had eventually taken his own life.

I did indeed do a lot of growing up down there.

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