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25. The Musical Epiphany (1976)

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The Au Pairs
The Step-stepfather
The Simulated Wank
The Toy Store
The First Single
The Queeny Put-Down
The First Hissy Fit
The First Gay Club
The Rent Boy
The Heterosexual Phase
The Lifestyle Switch
The Empty Floor
The First Poem
The Amsterdam Weekend
The First Time
The Perfect Moment
The Year In Berlin
The Trade Years
The First Memory
The Anniversary Party
The Incompetencies
The Pricking Of The Bubble
The Club Residencies
The "Tales of the City" House
The Musical Epiphany
The Worst Thing I Ever Did To Anyone
The Royal Procession
The Parental Disclosure
The Concept Albums
The Romantic Obsession
The Failure
The Apotheosis of Queer
The Shove From Above
The Interrogation
The Professional Rut
The Rebirthday
The First Boyfriend
The "Catharsis Of Joy"
The Funeral Address
The Falling In Love

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Ever since Middle Of The Road’s seminal “Chirpy Chirpy Cheep Cheep” came along and rocked my world in the Summer of 1971, I had been an avid follower of pop music. I liked it because it was a cheerful, colourful, glamorous fantasy world, which was forever throwing up new variations and new surprises. Traumatised by my parents’ divorce in the Summer of 1973, I retreated further into this fantasy world; pop music became my escape, my comfort – my sanctuary. And I started to take it very seriously indeed.

This made me ideally suited as a consumer of progressive rock, which I discovered in the Summer of 1974 (first with Yes, then with Gong, followed by a whole host of others). This was music that took itself extremely seriously, with lavish artwork, impenetrably “deep” lyrics, and twenty-minute long quasi-symphonic pieces. Heady stuff indeed for an intellectually ambitious twelve year old. In fact, I proudly imagined myself to be the only twelve year old in the UK with such advanced, mature tastes for my age. In short, I really became quite the superior rock snob. I was soon devouring the “serious” weekly rock papers (NME, Sounds, Melody Maker), and gleefully colluding with the ever-shifting tastes of my favourite music journalists.

At boarding school, where in most respects I struggled to fit in with the other boys (too nervous, too vulnerable, too volatile, too wimpy, too dorky, too mixed-up basically), I found that my musical tastes, my abnormally large album collection, and my encyclopaedic knowledge of the subject, brought me some measure of respect and “cool”. I got to hang out with the senior boys, who would let me sit on bean bags in their studies with a cup of Nescafe, in return for a hearing of the new Genesis, Greenslade, Pink Floyd or Mike Oldfield.

And then, in the early Autumn of 1976, punk rock came along. Almost as soon as I started reading about it in the music press, I was fascinated and thrilled by the very idea of it. The punk philosophy was nothing short of revolutionary. It fundamentally questioned all of my received notions of what was good about music. It then summarily trashed everything which had gone before it (the long hair, the flares, the guitar solos, the concept albums, the huge concerts, the technical wizardry) and replaced it with what seemed like a radical new manifesto (in reality: short hair, drainpipes, no guitar solos, three minute singles, small gigs, technical incompetency). It was Year Zero – my very own Cultural Revolution – and so, with almost Maoist zeal, I jumped aboard the bandwagon.

Punk became my new obsession, and boy, could I obsess. I read every article I could find (carefully pasting them into my Punk Scrapbook), bought every single (New Rose, Anarchy In The UK, Spiral Scratch), every fanzine (Sniffin’ Glue, Ripped & Torn, 48 Thrills), taped every John Peel session…and alienated all my fellow public schoolboys, who greeted the movement with universal incomprehension, derision and outright hostility (“Nothing but a bunch of yobs who can’t even play their instruments”). My popularity, which had been shaky at the best of times, sank to new depths (“That weirdo Slater with his bloody awful music”). I cared about that – but then again, I didn’t. I knew that they were all wrong and I was right, you see.

I still have all the old singles – some of them collectors’ pieces now. I don’t play them often, but when I do, they still sound special. And Punk did me good, I think. It made me think about the world outside the confines of my privileged existence. It made me question the status quo. It showed me that it was OK not to conform to society’s norms. Hey - if you’re a screwed-up fourteen year old in search of a youth cult to provide meaning in his life – I can really think of nothing better.

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